Another poem just trying to get into the zone/the arc of whatever I’m trying to tell about this story. Still feels like straw-clutching sadly
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Orpheus: study #6
don’t speak for weeks sit on stones by the river beneath the mountain rocks it’s dark water like tearsalt autumns pass, winters pass, never a spring no warming nights, no thawing snow
remember walking beneath a fragment of moon sneaking amongst young spruce laughing, light from the heavens starshine upon your skin giving you my hands, giving you a ring guarding us against love
we must meet again
asking strangers who slide past are you the one i seek have sought everywhere since the earliest days the strangers always answer no (if they answer at all)
i have forgotten what i know let my life begin as it ends
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Day 24 — TIL about Another Apple
Worm in the Apple
i. there was a third Apple founder
Ronald Wayne sold his 10% stake for $800 in 1976
Ronald Who?
Exactly!
ii. In the early 1990s Wayne sold the original Apple partnership contract paper
signed in 1976 by Jobs, Wozniak, & himself for US$500
In 2011 the contract sold at auction for $1.6 million
Today’s poem is a homage to Bill by way of Henry VIII. It’s a Golden Shovel of “Orpheus with his lute” a 12 line poem/song in Henry VIII. Many/Mosyt scholars believe this play was a collaborative effort between Bill & John Fletcher, & I’m inclined to agree with them because it’s never felt like “Shakespeare” to me.
I’ve chosen it because: well Orpheus … & I have Golden Shoveled the last words of each line, juggled them & turned it into a sonnet. Not a great sonnet, mind you, but one with a passing resemblance to a snout. Unlike the ones from the 19th which were all AI generated That was the big guessing game thing that all two of you played haha). It had been my intention to reinterpret one of those to try & punch it into shape but I just found it too hard/the lines too banal. This definitely needs more work, but time being what it is means you get what you see …
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Luteless, Orpheus (with Golden Shovelment to William Shakespeare/John Fletcher)
Forlorn Orpheus longed once more to see for himself; the unbelievable greenness of trees, Rather than be buried neckdeep in melancholy surrounded by deep dirt, soul ready to freeze
He had long since forgotten how to sing had no desire to take up lute & play, Forgotten there was a thing called spring. had no desire to complete his latest lay.
He longed for the cheerful sway of flowers wished somehow to re-kickstart his sad heart Longed for the gentlest summer showers wished sadly to care once more about petty art:
If only he hadn’t glimpsed her in his corner eye Then neither of them would have needed to re-die.
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Day 23 — TIL about Bill’s birthday
old man Bill
If Bill were alive today he’d be 459 which although pretty rootin’ tootin’ ancient — is still less than half as long as Noah or Adam.
However, he splashes all the post-flood crew out of the water — over double Abraham & Isaac; almost quadruple poor young Moses.
Which is easier to believe: Methuselah made it to 969 — or the Stratford man wrote the damn plays!
Over the course of a month lots of ideas get tested & abandoned. Several lines in this poem were previously homeless yet coagulated into this one. As for the Poetic Factoid Poem — Warning. There’s a big *BIG* TRIGGER WARNING on this one for people who don’t feel/think they’re as old as they really are.
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Lord of the Fools
dirt beneath my nails clawing the claybanks for your return
dream of trees
a lifetime to learn the dead do not dance back to life on the whim of a lonely man
a mere heart beat to make it proof
can’t craft the words the way my brain feels them
impossible imposter
need to learn another language to remember how to speak my own
lost days
try drowning myself in every river
but even there i’m evicted
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Day 22 — TIL something deeply disturbing about the Lord of the Rings films
the Lord of the Wrinkles
i. meme read a brutal meme today which said Viggo Mortensen is the same age Ian McKellen was when he played Gandalf.
NO, I AM NOT OKAY I CANNOT POET ANY MORE TODAY SORRY! GOODBYE!!
ii. data naturally, being a fool i had to check the veracity of cursed meme — turns out it’s even worse Aragorn’s older than Gandalf was at the end of Return of the King!
time for a cuppa & a lie down
Principal photography 11 October 1999 — 22 December 2000 with pick-up shots done from 2001 to 27 June 2003.
Viggo born October 20, 1958 (current age 64) 45 when started filming, 49 when finished
Ian born 25 May 1939 (current age 83) 60 when started filming, 64 when finished
This poem is a sibling to yesterday’s in that it began as a verse in that Frankenpoem which did not fit in with the rest, but was an idea I liked & echoed one I’d been considering: a poem wherein Big O is a fun guy while making his way down to Hades. The title just won’t work though…
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shroom-zoom
took a wrong turn shimerlight lost not even shades wander this way lick water from walls but wretched hunger will claim me first at least i’ll die here perhaps my psyche will find its way to E only the sooty fungi the clang of clay pots tracking spicy spores down into the river at the end of the world beginning of the universe stars & souls & gods all zooming by / the ache of my internal eyes
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Day 21 — TIL about the Gruen Effect
the Gruen Effect
shopping malls (& casinos) modern pilgrimage sites fully enclosed introverted climate-controlled faux town squares skylight-lit food court pleasuredomes+parking are intentionally designed as confusing customer traps / disorienting / losing track of time & space / engrossing overwhelming experiences / crammed with colour / bright lights / tantalising smells / to transport customers in/ to states of emotional arousal / succumb to countless tempting desires / forget their original reason for shopping / make impulse purchases because / they’re / available / & / attractive
This poem was created using a technique I call Frankenpoeming. It’s where I take a few lines or a phrases or an image from the poems I’ve been reading each day & then crunch them all together — reconfiguring metaphors, smashing words against each other, juxtaposing ideas I wouldn’t have necessary considered, & just generally using them as jumping off points into something of my own.
Then I leave it for a few hours, before going over it again & editing tweaking polishing, extending weird things into things that more (or less) sense. Sometime extracting the really crazy stuff altogether — or just leaving it.
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darkness treks
for fifteen months been unsuccessfully screaming you home
daily flinging myself at the feral ferryman’s feet heart full of terrorlove
every note forlorn forever can no longer tell bat from man, from moth
seven forgotten stars stare straight in my eye singing swift desolation
endless walks deep down permanently passing leading from nowhere
to somewhere worse
Day 20 – TILthat in 1974, the Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis published a paper titled “The Unsuccessful Self-Treatment of a Case of Writer’s Block.” It contained a total of zero words.
With this in mind, I’d like to write a poem based on the paper.
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The Unsuccessful Self-Treatment of a Case of Writer’s Block (a poetic interpretation)
A different kind of day today as I played with form/function/generation a little. There is something which links all 4 of these poems (almost everything on this page in fact). I’m wondering if anyone can work it out.
Sonnet 1 Of Orpheus’ lyre, the ancient bards did sing, Whose melodies could charm the savage beast, And make the rivers dance and trees take wing, While all creation listened to his feast.
With golden chords he wove a magic spell, And drew the shades of Hades to his side, To rescue his beloved from the depths of hell, And bring her back to earth, his blushing bride.
But fate was cruel, and jealous gods did frown, For mortal love was not for them to bless, And so they tore his love away, to drown, In the eternal night of loneliness.
Yet still he played, his music pure and true, And all who heard were moved, and loved anew.
Limerick 1 There once was a man named Orpheus Whose music could calm any ruckus He played with such skill The trees would be still And rivers would cease their loud gushes.
Limerick 2 Orpheus played the lyre with grace His music could slow any chase He sang with such skill His voice could even still The ferocity of a wildcat’s race.
Sestina 1 Orpheus, the bard with lyre in hand, played music that made the gods weep. His voice was like the sweetest bird, and all around him would gather to hear as he sang of love and tragedy, of loss and hope, of life and death.
His love, Eurydice, met an early death, and grief consumed Orpheus like a brand. He journeyed to the underworld, full of tragedy, to plead with Hades, and make him weep. The god was moved by Orpheus’ voice, so dear, and allowed him to bring back his beloved bird.
But Orpheus, in his haste, lost his bird, and his love was returned to eternal death. Heartbroken, he sang a mournful song, so dear, and played his lyre with a trembling hand. His music made the underworld weep, as they listened to his tale of tragedy.
Orpheus’ life was marked by tragedy, as he mourned his love and lost his bird. His songs made even the gods weep, and his voice was as mournful as death. But he continued to play, with steady hand, singing of the past, present, and what he held dear.
Orpheus’ lyre was his most dear, as it spoke his heart’s deepest tragedy. He played with a steady, sure hand, telling the story of his lost bird. His music echoed with the voice of death, as he made even the underworld weep.
His voice, like the sweetest bird, made them weep, as he sang of the things that he held dear, of love and loss, of life and death. Orpheus’ life was a tale of tragedy, but his music, like his lost bird, lives on, guided by his steady hand.
Day 19 – TIL aboutmy relationship with Reality TV
True Man
Truman syndrome is a mental condition some people suffer where they believe they’re the star of an imaginary reality tv show.
You’ve got to feel sorry for those people living their sad fantasy worlds given i long ago realised that i was & am the centre the focus of attention of millions & millions of adoring fans worldwide — my family & everyone i know merely actors in a charade which makes me the rightful focus of the world’s attention.*
That being said — you’d think they’d have gotten better actors to play some of the parts
*paraphrasing words actually said by someone who suffers from Truman syndrome
dearest love : though : you : cannot hear me : nor feel me neither : (i fear) : i’m only a little : behind you : close enough to reach : out : to clasp your hand : if i could : (if i was allowed) : if the sensation : of my white hand : passing through yours : did not eerie me out : so i silently : wait : stepping softly : behind you : (waiting, hoping ) : for day light : to appear : (perhaps) : for you : not to despair
Day 18 – TIL about my relationship with books
Tsundoku
the joyful gleeful wonderful act of acquiring books & not reading them
… yet …
i’m a tsundoku sensei believing there’s always tomorrow & failing that — next life
The poetry volume I read today had several Mirror Cinquains in it. This is a mix of a standard Cinquain & a Reverse Cinquain. So, using the usual syllable counting convention, a mirror cinquain = 2,4,6,8,2 blank line 2,8,6,4,2 syllables. I’m not usually a big fan of form poems, they feel too forced unless you’ve got a lot of time to tweak them (which you don’t get in a NaPoWriMo when you’re working). Nonetheless I thought I’d give it a bash. There are lines I wish I could alter (ignore the scansion) which might happen in a future version.
Orpheus’s last song
lament sad bobbing head song sung sans vocal chords always singing his beloved’s name loudly
even death could not prevent him from it despite decapitation sings as it floats to sea
Day 17 – TIR my gran
It’s the anniversary of my gran’s birthday today. To remember her, I looked for some Facts About Grandmothers & found a variety of sites ranging from dry statistics “78% read the newspaper” type thing to wildly subjective. However the one I have chosen appeared on several pages & is without doubt, true. (I have not chosen the most obvious fact: No love is as special as grandmother’s: it truly is unconditional.)
Grandmother Fact #1: they cook the best food
christmas lunches tuna mournays corned beef swimming in white sauce thick pea & ham soup egg sandwiches, taken from the freezer, then toasted even just Continental Hearty Beef soup straight outta the packet tasted ambrosial from her kitchen
what would this vego grandson give for the chance of one more meal with his gran
Just playing round with a passage from Book IV of Virgil’s The Georgics where he describes an incident surrounding the Big O following his failed attempt to restore Eurydice to life (he claims he that O lamented for seven whole months).
nightingale
a nightingale nightly cries amongst the shadowy poplars
lamenting the loss of her chicks stolen as i saw by some hard-
hearted ploughman (what need has he of three featherless chicks
callously snatched from their nest). the mourning songstress weeps
her song throughout the night all night, every night, repeating
her miserable notes relentlessly pierces all peace with her pain
wails all night, fills air all around with melancholy protestations.
unlike Orpheus, she has not forgotten how to sing
Day 16 – TIL a lot of flamingo related fun facts. (In point of fact I have lots & lots of bird facts, that I almost put a dozen of them into one megapoem, but this flamingo triptych seems to work quite well…)
flamingo triptych
i. there are more fake flamingos on Earth than real ones
ii. flamingos pair for life some stay mated for 50 years or more
nice that flamingos are 12.5x better at partnering than i am
iii. you probably know a crowd of crows is called a murder
& an assembly of owls is a parliament (or wisdom, or study)
but life gets really joyful the day you discover a flock of flamingoes is a flamboyance
With Big O & Eurydice being the theme this year, it feels a little like every day/poem explores the issue of grief so at times I’m not sure whose writing what about whom or when. The only thing I am sure of is why.
dream
always know when you dream of me — it’s why i never sleep.
abandon the rasping light of day to pretend you’re calling my name.
the hazy lamps murky blue dragging me from the road.
walk on without knowing the way repeating thought eternally fast, faster.
tracing back black stone steps down again into echoing caves.
the dog by the great gates barks three times, or once each.
the blood river creases & curdles with endless ponderous energy.
always knowing i’ll never find you — we exist in incompatible worlds.
Day 15 – NTBLAILabout more than a forgotten letter of the alphabet
In Celebration of &
the ampersand’s formed from the ligature of the letters ET — the Latin word for “and”
… & the term “ampersand” is a corruption of and (&) per se and which literally means “(the character) & by itself (is the word) and”
… & this small odd looking character was actually once (kind of) the 27th member of the English alphabet*
… & when reciting the alphabet in the 1800s long-suffering schoolchildren would sing-song-say, “X, Y, Z, and per se and” so the students were essentially chanting “X, Y, Z, and by itself and”
… & being lazy children this was routinely slurred to the mondegreen ampersand & thus entered common usage
… & there’s a graffiti & in Pompeii from 79 CE
… & when it appears as &c where it means etc. (the ampersand time travels back into its E & T bones)
… & in screenplays, an & denotes a writing team [the word and designates the writers wrote separately, read: someone rewrote, & if there’s more than three ands on a credit, it’s a good sign you should probably stay the hell away from that movie]
… & when creating new type faces the & character allows designers to inject a little joie de vivre & artistic flair into proceedings
… not to mention some quite nice poets really love it & if that’s not a cause for celebration — then there isn’t one
*the thorn and the wynn are also membersof the Former Members Of The Alphabet Club but sadly we don’t have time (in this pome)to learn what led to their demises
2 Bob’s worth: a bonus poem
i. Jerk Bob that old bundle of chuckles the joy-killing chump Robert Hartwell Fiske in his dreary, dull AND utterly unreadable Dictionary of Unendurable English: A Compendium of Mistakes in Grammar, Usage, and Spelling with Commentary on Lexicographers and Linguists believes ampersands should only exist in proper names, business names, book titles, and the like never in place of the word and
he further opines: aside from the hurried, the only people inclined to use & in place of and are those who have scant sense of self and scant sense of style, and believe using & somehow swells them both.
ii. Lovely Bob Robert Nares in his far more charming highly erudite & intellectual work A Glossary; or, Collection of words, phrases, names, and allusions to customs, proverbs, etc., which have been thought to require illustration in the works of English authors, particularly Shakespeare and his contemporaries. Vol. I. A new ed., with considerable additions both of words and examples believes the ampersand’s calligraphic qualities make it a compelling design element that can add visual appeal & personality to any page.
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