death fractures // cracking bones // ligaments whiplash // the jostle // hustle // crave chocolate block comfort // crave compassion \\ tiny church overflowing \\ weeping so wrenchingly ugly — it has become beautiful \\ anger like an endless need to urinate without any chance for relief \\ cramp \\ bladder cramp \\ soul cramp \\ heart damp \\ where’s the respite \\ the redemption \\ soul long left // muddy earth // despite skyblue sunshine // knees crack // smack whack // the big hole // the endless whole \\ overheated hall \\ tilted \\ stilted \\ asked 10 times about the kids i don’t have \\ twice by the same guy // somehow // a long table of laughter & one outside // symbolic somehow // conversation consists of countless carnivores delighting in meat filled memory meals consumed over many years // delicious gristle // machiavellian dancers pirouette over appetite // emptiness // cosmic cravings 

goblins \\ on the drive homewards \\ darkness tunnels // only the cat’s eyes cross the road